Artist: Soilent Green
Record: Sewn Mouth Secrets
One thing I notice as I get older is how albums take on new meanings as your experiences change. That’s what happened with this album 8-years ago. I exited an abusive relationship and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. “A devil speaks to disguise my eyes so you cannot see the knowledge of unkind inflict selfish ways to undermind trust stepped on only to be stepped upon. Wishful thought to smooth out high tempers in need a doll an image for wrath to unleash the aggressor.” The physical parts weren’t even the worst of it. I can’t begin to describe the emotional pain, not just from him, but the people around the situation and the court system… I was flooded with anger and pain. I put on ‘Sewn Mouth Secrets’ in my car and it opens, “unjust response for your ignorance intensify my rage, unrest that makes me strong…” The same song I had heard before, I just got in a way I never had. I tuned into the lyrics more and more… I am not sure what Ben had to go through to come up with the words for this album but it made me feel less alone. Seemed like someone else was just as abused and broken and trying to make sense of everything… and tear it all apart at the same time. And the words wouldn’t have the impact absent the music to back it up. As much brutality is brashly conveyed in Soilent Green’s music, there’s also this melodic component that can’t be denied. So coming out of that experience, I decided the album art would make for a good tattoo. To this day it’s one of my favorite records to jam, especially first thing in the morning. Reminds me of everything I’ve overcome and if I could survive that, I can handle just about anything.